Category: Unexpected

“I try to remember that walking in the will of God might mean waiting..”

Tessa Afshar

Today was the day I was suppose to leave for South Africa but God had different plans.

My team left but I will be staying in a hotel tonight. I will be getting a covid test tomorrow morning and pray it’s negative so I can leave tomorrow night.

I had to take an Uber after I left the airport. My Uber driver is from Cuba and his name is Geiler. The nicest man ever. I got to hear part of his story. Geiler is an artist, he’s a husband to his lovely wife Lilly, a father to a 18 year old month daughter and also a father to another daughter their expecting this Christmas.

My favorite part of our conversation though, was that Geiler asked if I was Christian. I replied, “Yes I am a Christian.” Then I asked him, “Are you a Christian?” He said, “Yes.” Then from there on we talked about churches, how things happen all in God’s plan and it was in that moment my heart in that car changed. One moment I was really sad and I didn’t understand why God allowed this to happen, but then I met Geiler.

As my team heads off to South Africa tonight. I pray you would pray for them.

I know the Lord is with them and as I follow hopefully soon tomorrow right behind them. I know He’s with me.

Things happen in life we can’t expect. Sometimes we don’t know why and other times God reveals to us the reason later why it happened the way it did. Today God wanted me to meet Geiler and I’m so thankful that I got to meet him.

Caili

“Be smarter than Caili when you pull down a garage door.”

Caili

I wasn’t planning on writing a blog tonight but I know some times I’m going to be writing back to back, while other times might be weeks apart.

It’s crazy how much can happen within 24 hours. This weekend I had the privilege to go to my friends cottage. I was getting the golf cart out of the garage this morning, so that we could drive it down to the water. Long story short, I broke my finger trying to put the garage door down. It was very painful. But hey, I got the golf cart out of the garage.

So my day went for a turn. A day I thought I’d spend in the water, to spending most of it in the ER. This evening on my way home I cried. Not because the day didn’t turn out the way I hoped, or that my finger hurt, but because of some of the hurt I’m still dealing with personally. It’s an internal pain that makes you cry and have to gasp for air. A cry that you sometimes forget how loud you’re crying. A pain that leaves me tonight to question how can God use me when I feel so broken and far from Him? How do I know He’s actually here with me? How can He take me to a different country and use me to be a light to others when I feel like my light is too dim to shine?

I’ve learned today we can’t always wrap a bandage and put a splint on the hurt. We just have to live through the pain. No matter how much it hurts. Life is always going to bring pain. Sometimes the pain is enough to put a bandage on it. Sometimes the pain is going to take longer to heal. And then sometimes neither of those are enough, until we get to Heaven.

My prayer request this week is that God would be intentional in showing me He’s right by my side and I pray that I would have the heart to pursue Him.

Thank you guys for all your love and prayers. It means a lot to me.

Caili