So it Begins Again..

“Give me a heart for every heart that’s breaking, and give me eyes to see we’re so much more than flesh and blood.”

We are Messengers

I look back on this past week and how many God moments I’ve experienced. So many answered prayers that I’ve prayed for so long. And yet, the sinful nature of my humanity is I still let the presence of fear be real this week. A couple of days ago on my plane ride back home, I looked out my window and watched the sunset. It was one of the most beautiful plane ride sunsets I’ve ever seen. I was reminded how much God’s love for me is so much closer to me than I can fully ever imagine.

This morning at church my pastor preached such a profound message about how often Jesus is a destabilizing figure in our lives.

He is always calling us into deeper waters.

Jesus told Peter to leave his net and Peter left everything to follow Jesus. Some of us are called to leave our nets and some of us are called to stay in the lake where Jesus has already placed us.

A big thing I learned in South Africa was that my faith wasn’t there to necessarily lead me out of my hardships or keep me safe from the adversity I experienced. But rather, my faith kept leading me towards the pain.. and my faith kept leading me into deeper waters.

My hope and prayer after the Holy Land or when I’m older, I’ll have the eyes to look back and say, “I see it.” Just the way I’ve already seen it looking back at my time in South Africa.

Tomorrow I leave and I ask for the prayer of peace. His peace that surpasses all understanding. The peace that gives me the courage to go into deep waters.

And for my readers, my family and friends, I leave with you this challenge:

I wonder what lake you are in?

I wonder if you’re stuck in the shallows?

And I wonder, are you willing to step further into deeper waters?

Caili