“As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.”
Psalm 42:1
We’re all dying to live but we’re all scared to death
And this is the part where my head tells my heart
You should turn back around
But there’s no turning back now
I’m going all in
Head first to the deep end
I hear You calling
And this time the fear won’t win
I’m going, I’m going all in
I’m living in a season in my life right now where I’m feeling spiritually dry. I feel like I’m walking in a desert with a heavy weight on my heart. Times I feel I don’t know where I’m going. Moments of doubt and apprehension. It hit me tonight that sometimes the reality of God’s will is being done not through me, but rather outside of me and around me, and sometimes in spite of my best efforts. The beautiful part is that God’s unrelenting love toward me is never increased or diminished based on how I feel or anything I say or do. Even though seasons change, I know my connection with God can never change.
My blog name is Withhold Nothing. The word “withhold” means to refuse to give, or holdback emotions and feelings. I want to withhold nothing when I go to my Father. No matter how many times I stray away from Him, I want to always be able to run back to Him and tell Him everything. There is nothing He doesn’t already know.
“I’m going all in” is the action of withholding nothing. By going all in, in my relationship with God, in putting myself out there to new people, being vulnerable in certain situations, and to always being all in, in loving all people. One of my favorite songs “All In” by Matthew West is a reminder as I meet the people on my team and in preparing and leaving my family and friends. I want to be all in.
Caili
Withhold Nothing 